Saturday - May 23rd - Health Update

Victor was awake more today and we talked a little.

He has less pain - and this is very good.

He did develop a low grade fever and he now has antibiotics added to his IV drip along with the saline drip and an electorlite drip. Later this evening his blood pressure was a little elevated and his oxygen level dropped. They put him back on oxygen.

He had more blood work done this afternoon and had another CTScan (this time with contrast).

He stated that the two bottles of barium tasted like vanilla muscle milk... :) I will take is word on that one.

The CTScan has already been read by the radiologist (we have friends in high places) and the audio report is available for the physician to listen to (she had already left for the day). We will be told tomorrow the results of the lab work; the blood cultures and the CTScan.

I have tried to maintain emotional composure; yet I have had moments when Victor was asleep when the tears would just flow. Even now in the quiet of the living room the tears flow freely. I haven't quite figured out why I am so sad. Sometimes, it is because my husband is sick. Other times it is because I am so tired. On several occassions I know the tears come because of my thoughts and all the things I want to say to my husband. How much I love him and how important he is to me. I have found that the words don't come easily, yet I am hoping that he know how much I love him by my willingness to help him and watch over him. Everything from helping him get out of bed; bringing him water or just repositioning the pillows is not a task or a burden. I want to help him. I want him to be comfortable.

It's amazing how love grows by leaps and bounds when you care for the one that you love.

Any way, it is late and I have an early start planned for tomorrow.

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers.