Well, I have been participating in the Ventura College Symphany Orchestra since the end of August. I am not as good a music student as I was in High School - I do not practice as I should.
I have assigned myself the last chair in the Clarinet Section and have enjoyed not being in the lime light. The conductor/instructor does notice when I am not there (I missed a few rehearsals) and makes a point to come speak with me when I enter the music room.
I have told myself that I need to practice a little more if I truly want to become the principal clarinet. The principal in our section has heard me play and has told the conductor that I am rather good. :) Because I know my potential (and I am no where near it) I shy away from the compliments.
Truth be known: I really want to be the principal clarinet and have been a little sad that I don't play as much because the solos go to the principal. In addition to the desire, I know that the seat is earned and that I really have to practice to get back to the skill level that I had been at as a sophomore in high school.
With that said; we have our first concert this Saturday. I am both excited and nervous. I'm excited because we are performing and my children will be able to attend a concert for the first time. Where I am sitting they will be able to see me. :)
I am nervous because I have not practiced as I should and I am weak in my performance with one of the mendellsohn pieces; Symphany No. 4.
Since I plan to continue to pursue my musical career I guess I should devote some more time to musical study at home.
I wish you all could be here for the concert. We sound pretty good! :)